Painfully Aware

Every time I try to get close to you,
You sink your teeth in.
Never mind the constant nibble,
All you do is bite.
Like on slammed door after another,
It’s never enough to just love you.
No.
It’s nothing.
Nothing you could ever feel,
Nothing you could ever recognise,
Nothing you’d ever give.
You watch me stand in the rain,
And as the water dampens my soul,
My heart reached out for yours.
What comes forth from morrow?
What torture will you promise to inflict upon me,
What hate can I expect from your voice,
What is this need I crave from you,
What is this parasite that I’ve become?
Kick me and beat me,
And I will be forever yours.